YouTube videos - will they ever happen again?

I have been trying to find my way back to making more YouTube videos. I so enjoyed them once and do miss it. But it seems I am still struggling to gain the energy and balance of my time outside of work to make it more. I am really struggling to believe if anything I say really matters, but I know that is fear speaking and not the truth.

I also did make a video last weekend and was so excited and went to edit it, and half of it had no sound, sigh. So no idea what happened with that. And I have not decided whether I will do a voice over or just move on or re do it. I was feeling weird when I made it and felt so disorganized. It is very possible all my videos are like that, lol.

So here we are still no more videos for February. On to March though, tomorrow I am embracing that full moon energy and working on some manifestations that will see me through the rest of the year.

Winter Blues it Seems

I had hoped that doing the 31 days of Backgrounds would help me not have the winter blues this year. But it sadly has not, really, sort of. I have gotten WAY behind on them due to being sick and other things. I am being harder on myself than I should but still it sucks. I still plan to continue. I was a lot sicker than I had thought, I am still recovering, I am not 100 percent. I am not even sure I was 100 percent before! Since my husband lost his job we have no insurance and so I have no more migraine medicine, it is about 800 bucks for 12 pills, so cannot afford that. It has been worse than I thought so far and it is only January! I am again looking into natural remedies as well as trying to redo my diet to try and prevent them


ANYWAY on to better things, it is February! I have some art projects to work on. I have homework to do always, finals this Sunday, two major papers due and  then new classes on Monday!

BUT October is right around then I will be done! Pray for me!